First Moon Forever 22

“Psheeeew! What is that smell?” – Was the first thing heard as soon as the door opened. Mommy had decided I should sit in my mess for a little while ‘to get used to being a stinky little puppy’ as she said, but it was so hard. I had been trying to play with the toys she had set out for me on the living room floor and I was okay with it just being the two of us, but Marsha broke me out of playtime and I grabbed a blanket to try and hide.

“Marsha! Be nice to your little sister, she was just getting comfortable in her mucky pants.” She was trying to hide it, but I could hear the laugh in her voice.

“Oh, sorry mama! I didn’t know the baby was so small is all.” Both of them were hiding the teasing laugh as best as they could, but I knew.

“Moooommyyyyy! Can I have a change now?” I whined from under the plush blanket.

“Now sweetie, we talked about this…” Liliana began and I helped her finish. “… babies don’t ask to be changed.” Our tones were very different and Marsha couldn’t hold back any more and burst into laughter. “Oh! I think your big sister just volunteered to change you!”

I dropped the blanket in shock to see my expression mirrored on Marsha’s face, but we could both see Liliana was being serious, so I crawled back to the nursery behind the grumbling older wolf. “Walked right into that didn’t I baby sis?” I couldn’t help but giggle to myself.

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An hour later we were all back in the living room, the Goosebumps movie on TV. Marsha was playing on the switch while I was busy with Legos. Liliana had gone back to her office to take care of things and the doorbell rang.

“Oh, Rachel? You wanted Chinese, they’re here.” Liliana called from the back of the house.

I looked down at myself in nothing but a wolf print onesie and diaper. “M-marsha?”

“Nuh uh squirt, you wanted it, you go get it.” She grinned at me as I slowly got up and walked anxiously to the door. On the other side was a thin young person in black skinny jeans, a white t-shirt and black denim vest covered in patches and pins. They had a long bubblegum pink mohawk and a shocked look for a moment as they took me in. They looked me up and down before smiling.

“Aww, hi sweetheart, is your mommy, daddy or guardian home? I need an adult to sign for the credit card slip.” They smiled, my cheeks puffed out and Marsha burst into a giggle fit in the next room. I wanted to fuss, but their study tone and kind demeanor stopped me. I held out my hands expectantly, but he didn’t relent. Liliana rested her chin on my shoulder, a feat with me being about half a foot taller than her.

“Oh hello, I’ll take care of that.” She took the slip, signed it and handed it back to them. They handed me the food and ruffled my hair.

“Thank you miss! Have a lovely evening.” They turned and I saw a big white rabbit back patch on their vest. “Glad to see you found someone, Liliana.” They did as they walked away.

“Thanks Jessie. See you later.” I huffed as I looked back at her. “What, are you surprised?”

“Honestly… I really shouldn’t be anymore. My mommy has all the connections, but…was that magic or…?”

“Jessie’s delivered to the club on party nights before. I don’t think anything really fazes them anymore.” Marsha offered from her spot on the couch. “Plus you’re too cute to upset anyone.”

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Fanala looked up from her weird new bag across the fire too me. A strange grin across their face which was always a bad sign from them. The large Goliath was known to come up with mischievous ideas and when she set her mind to it there was no stopping her.

“Fanala… what is it?” I asked, sounding much more unsure than I wanted to let on.

“Oh, Aurea… you never got a proper childhood… never anyone’s little princess?” The question stung and brought tears to my eyes. They knew I had mentioned missing out on these childhood things. “Oh darling… I didn’t mean to cause hurt, just… I think I want to help with that.” They of course meant no harm and I knew it. It wasn’t like growing up different in a nomadic Goliath group was a perfect childhood either, but it was a childhood.

Being an orphan that was framed for murder and sent to prison for ten years was bad enough, but when you accept the fact that you aren’t actually a boy despite everything while being behind bars, it leaves you without any kind of pleasant memories from your youth.

Richard, the chivalrous high elf that he was, sat up from his bedroll. “Whatever are you on about Fanala?” He knew they were never the best with words, but also that she had to have some point.

“Well, this bag is something like a bag of holding…” She began.

“Ah, very good…and?” He made a gesture for them to get to the point.

“It has an… interesting stipulation to the magic. It’s for a parent or caretaker you see.” I raised my eyebrow not knowing what to expect other than some form of humiliation. The grin had already told me that much. They began to take a few items from the bag. It all seemed like clothes in my size, interestingly enough. “See, it comes with a spell to make all the things you would need in the perfect size for your little one.”

And everything she was pulling out was my size… I began to get the general idea a bit too late as Richard seemed to catch on first. He grabbed me with a heart laugh. “Aurea dear, our lovely friend here is right. Our sweet little princess does deserve happy little memories.”

“I’m not a princess, I’m a fucking king and you know it!” I squirmed to try and get away, but despite his slender size, he was quite strong and neither of us was looking to hurt the other.

“Settle down little one and mama take care of you.” Fanala cooed. I stuck my tongue out in defiance, but it didn’t stop her from easily stripping me of my night clothes. The two of them laid me down on a pastel colored mat. Richard held me as Fanala first got my fists into tight mittens and my feet into silk lined booties. She then pulled out something thick, pink and plasticy. “Well, I think I know what this is, but it’s much thicker and convenient than when we were little, huh Richard?”

“Oh, quite! In fact, my mother still hasn’t let me forget about the hours Nanny spent cleaning the old linen things. I do believe they would be quite pleased with this advancement.” All the while I protested and squirmed as my large Goliath friend lotioned, powdered and diapered my tush and princess parts. “She looks just darling!”

The diaper was ridiculous. Beyond just the fact that it should’ve never been put on me, it was also sized to fit me as if I were an infant. While I whined I was surprised by a large pacifier being shoved in my mouth and off course it had some spell on it that kept me from being able to do anything but suck on it. I looked up at them pitifully, but Fanala simply pulled a ruffled baby dress over me before lifting me up and cradling me close. “There there, we’ll at least let you pretend to be a big girl again if we need our little rogue-lock in a fight.”

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“You! What the fluff did you do to me!?” Fluff? What? No, I was trying to say… what was that word again? Oh. I shouldn’t say it because it’s a bad word.

More dread set in as she just grinned at me. Even though I could think on my own again, there were still blocks there. Could I get up? Could I walk? Hopefully I could take this stupid diaper off.

Not stupid, it’s my diaper. I love my diaper.

No! I hate it…love it.

“W-why? Why did you do this? Why can’t I think straight? Why can’t I say bad words… Why did i call them bad words?” I knew I sounded pathetic but I felt pathetic, so it was fitting.

“Oh sweet heart. Did mommy’s little girl wake up grumpy?” She sounded so sweet and it was making me sick to my stomach.

“Yeth mommy. Me grumpy an my tummy is too.” I wanted to puke, but instead I just whimpered up at the woman standing over me.

“If your tummy is grumpy, then why don’t you try to make a grumpy for mommy?” Her grin looked so evil. What did that even mean? Why was I grabbing my feet and rocking back. Oh…no…no please not this…

No matter how hard I tried to fight it, I just couldn’t. I could feel the warm slime ooze into the waiting diaper. It was disgusting. Nothing about it was okay and yet I was filled with joy to rock onto a sitting position, the mush squelching around me as I wiggled and I looked up at mommy. “I did it! I did it mommy!”

“See? Isn’t that much better? Don’t you just love being mommy’s precious baby girl?” She cooed and tickled under my neck making me giggle. As much as I loathed it, the worm she’d put in my brain made me love it. Tears were streaming down my cheeks even as I smiled and burbled at Ami. “You made a much more fun test subject that any of them ever did, sweetie. You’re mind has taken so well to the coding and your body didn’t fight any of the hardware. Plus, you’re just the cutest little thing without all the drab clothing and that awful personality. I can see she’s still in there, but even you can tell you have been happy these last few months. Can’t you?”

I nodded. It was true. I had been so miserable for years and after the last few months it was all just… better? But for all I knew that was just another code written into my brain. I may have been devastatingly depressed, but at least I was me…right? Ami held my cheek gently and kissed me on the forehead.

“Baby girl, don’t fret over all that now. We don’t have to go back to full immersion if you can learn to let yourself enjoy this. Have today to play. If you do well, we can ease you back out.”

So lose myself by force or change into what she wanted of my own doing and be cognizant if it all. Either way, that tough self reliant girl would be gone. What a wonderful choice to have.

First Moon Forever 21

It took me less than a week to explore the DL side of ABDL. Liliana was busy with pack business, so while home alone I was running around doing stuff in just a diaper and t-shirt. I was starting to realize just how nice they felt. Beyond the fact that they made me feel small, cute and safe, they also just excited me in a way I didn’t realize at first. Especially when wet.

The warm padding pressed against me as I moved. It was unlike anything I had really experienced before and I was realizing how bothered I was getting. With the house clean, I went to my room and pulled my pink wand from the bottom of my ‘toy chest’, crawled into my bed and took a deep breath. With the head pressed into the crinkling plastic, the toy hummed to life. Instantly the vibration sent chills up my spine. In my already excited state I wasn’t expecting just how nice it would feel and let out a howl.

“Excuse me?” Liliana snapped me back to attention. I must have been so caught up in my arousal that I didn’t even pay attention to the world around me. She made her way quickly to me and growled softly. Taking the wand from my hand, she squeezed my sodden diapered crotch. “Mine.” She huffed out and nipped my ear.

I bit back a moan as she took control. “Stay.” She commanded. Her eyes were bright. The wolf was enjoying this too. So I lay there on my bed, a needy mess, waiting to see what she had in mind for her naughty little girl.

It was only a few minutes, but to my flustered brain it felt like hours. When she came back she had the box of fun stuff I had picked recently and all but her underwear were gone. I gasped and squirmed. “Oh…Liliana? Now? I was so close.”

“I know you were, and you didn’t even wait for me. So very naughty of you. You’re just going to have to learn.” She tutted at me as she took a wrist and locked the first of the cuffs around it.

“No. No no no. Please, no?” I fussed and squirmed as she repeated the process on each limb. Before chaining the cuffs to the straps coming from under my mattress, she looked me in the eyes. I knew she could get the answer she wanted just from my eyes or accent even, but I still thought ‘green’ to her.

With me all secured, she strapped the wand to my leg and left it to buzz on low into my damp diaper. She twirled across my room to my closet, wiggling out of her panties as she went. I watched from my bed longingly as she took one of the Unicorn diapers from my shelf and gave me the crinkliest reverse-strip tease ever. I was huffing as I pulled against my bonds. I knew I could break them, but my mistress had put them on and that was enough to keep me from actually getting free.

Liliana danced at the foot of my bed, her padded rump swaying from side to side and driving me crazy. How was I this turned on by a fetish I had never even considered a month before? I wasn’t given too long to question it, because Liliana crawled onto my bed between my legs and over me. She pressed the wand between our diapers as she started to grind and pant herself. Now that she was astride me, she licked my neck, kissing all the way up til I turned to meet her. She kissed me deeply. A kiss that was both passionate and possessive. I could feel her energy as I returned it wholly. I was hers, but she was mine too.

As fast as she had been on top of me, she was gone and so was the wand. I let out a whimper as she leaned against the footboard. Looking me in the eyes she licked her lips. The magic wand hummed across the smooth plastic of her diaper. I was left to whine as she moaned with pleasure. I squirmed against my bonds, but it thrilled her more. Watching me wiggle helplessly as she grew ever closer to bliss. She pressed the wand more firmly into the crinkling padding, her muscles tensed and her breathing quickened. She was truly beautiful to watch and I was more needy than ever.

She chimed off the bed and lowered the rails so she could come right up beside my ear. “Oh, does my little pup want to cum too? Then do it.~” And I knew exactly what she meant. I had brought it up a few days ago and how I didn’t know if it was for me or not, but here I was. Strapped down to my bed, the head of the wand playing against my soaking wet diaper and… I whined. I closed my eyes, bit my lip and started pushing. The more I pushed out, the more intense Liliana got with the wand until all I knew was I was in bliss as the mess pressed against my rump. I was not the Rachel I came to the city as a month ago. I don’t think that version of me would ever understand how something so gross and juvenile could be ecstasy.

First Moon Forever 20

The back of my truck was loaded down with boxes and boxes of new stuff for the sprog. I was going to have a word or two with Liliana about having such things delivered to a security company. Sure most things came in unmarked brown boxes, but the larger things, not so much. Bed Rails, set of playpen panels, and then there was the crib. It was all easy enough to explain as a friend that was expecting, that didn’t stop the questions about the crib seeming larger than normal.

Before I headed over, I messaged a few of the wolves to meet me at the lady’s home to unload the mess so I could put it together. An hour later I was busying myself with the monstrous crib when she came by. I didn’t acknowledge her, but she just stood behind me for longer than curiosity’s sake. I grunted, but didn’t turn my attention to her.

“Um, Ronnie?” She finally spoke, more meekly than I expected from one that had won the heart of Liliana.

“Yes pup?” I bit out as I dropped a board on my foot.

“Can I help?” She shyly asked, having moved up behind me.

“I don’t see what help you could be here.” I grunted, fitting the last bolt needed to get the thing freestanding. “Run along and… play.” I could see her from the corner of my eyes as she puffed up her cheeks in frustration. The girl grabbed the box of Bed Rails and drug it down the hall. She knew she was strong enough to carry it easily, the dragging was simply a show of something I didn’t have time to care about.

I chuckled to myself and went back to putting in bolts when from down the hall I heard “Fuck.” I made my way to her bedroom to see she had flipped the mattress over. Obviously not thinking about how easy it was to lift with her new strength. I stealthily slid up behind her and stuck one of her new pacifiers in her mouth.

“Young princesses shouldn’t use such language, child.” And with that I left her stunned to go finish setting up her bed.

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My eyes drifted open. No, that wasn’t right? It felt like they had been open. Like I had been awake, but the world was coming back into focus? Gone was the dingy ripper’s shop. Everything was bright and colorful. There was some sort of colorful foamed arches crossing over me with things dangling from it. I recognized them like I had seen them everyday for… my entire life, but not? Toys. My toys.

There was a mirror and as I looked in it I could see my makeup was gone. My hair was longer all over. No longer dyed dark, but instead my natural blonde with some pink highlights. How long have I been out and why was my hair… cute. No more mohawk, but instead cute little tufty twin tails.

I looked my face over and saw the guard of… a pacifier… I’m my mouth. I wanted to spit it out, but I also didn’t. If I nursed it I would feel better and the fact that I knew that made me feel sick. What was going on? Think! I needed to think.

Face covered in baby food as I giggled and sputtered more out…

A big teddy bear… Tezzy. Hugging him everyday…

Cartoons… baby shows… all so mesmerizing…

Blocks… rings… sensory cube… teething rings… playpen… pacifiers… diapers…

I reached down to my midriff afraid of what I knew I’d find. Soft, plush, crinkly… my diaper… there had been so many diapers… so many diaper changes…

No… I needed to stop thinking… at least about all of that. Right now I need to focus. Jacobi. What had he said? ‘…she figured that would be the case…’ she…her… mommy? No! Not mommy… Ami, that fucking bitch! She had set this all up, but why? Too get some weird kick out of turning me into some dumb baby? Fucking sick. But…why could I think clearly now? What was this?

“Awwww, I see baby Lynn Lynn is awake.” Her sickeningly sweet voice sent chills down my spine even as it filled my heart with joy. That was my mommy!

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I watched her look around the room in amazement. Ms. Liliana looked at me with a scowl. “What is she seeing?”

“Oh hush lass, the wee wolf is just seeing the world through the eyes of her inner child.” I chuckled softly and gave Rachel’s head a pat. “You know my glamor is strongest the day after mother moon is at her fullest.”

“Winnie, you know I have business to take care of today, look at her, she’s deep in little space right now. Honestly, maybe for the first time even.” I caught her worrying expression.

“Don’t worry lassie, I can take care of your tyke for the day. It’ll be good for her to experience this headspace with no risk of shame.” Liliana nodded, but gave me a pout.

“Now I want to play with my baby girl…”

“There will be time for that later, and ‘toddler’ may be more accurate.”

Liliana fed little miss Rachel her breakfast as I went about getting some things set up for the day. When the alpha had to leave I caught her wiping tears from her eyes. It warmed my heart how she loved this girl for all that she was. It had been some time since I had seen her so whole. I had begun to worry she wouldn’t find what she needed and that’s never good for a wolf as old as she.

The day with Rachel was precious and I did feel bad that Liliana couldn’t be here to see her girl playing with toys in the makeshift play room I had set up for her. Flipping through kids shows it seemed she had quite the affinity for Blue’s Clues. I couldn’t stop smiling as she played along with the little puppy on the TV. Before the day was up I helped her back into her booster seat and put a plastic apron on the girl.

“Let’s paint a picture for your mommy, okay sweetie?” Rachel looked thoughtful for a moment, but nodded happily. By the time she was done, the paper was covered in a finger drawn picture of two wolves by the river. “Good job sweetie, Ms. Liliana will be home soon, so it’s time to get this place and a little girl all cleaned up.

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My day felt like a dream. I had played with toys, been incredibly engrossed in the stories of kids shows and even finger painted for the first time since I was four. It was wonderful, but I had wanted to do something since I woke up. I crawled on top of Liliana and growled playfully, but instead of growling back at me as I had hoped, she took my chin in her hands softly and looked into my eyes.

“No ma’am. You’ve been in little space all day and I think it’s still lingering a bit.” I whined and tried to protest, but she continued. “I don’t think tonight is a good time for that, I’m not risking hurting any part of you. No, I think tonight is a night for aftercare.” She pulled me close and wrapped a blanket around us. “We have all the time in the world to do everything our hearts desire and tonight I want to be here for you while you reflect on your day. Tell me all about your little adventure.”

First Moon Forever 18

“Last night was amazing!” I squealed, pouncing on Liliana. She woke up in surprise.

“Oh my Gods. What time is it?” She groaned.

“Ummm… nine?”

“Nine? How are you even awake, not to mention this hyper?”

“I dunno? I woke up and was still really happy?” She laughed softly.

“Good. I would’ve been more worried if you actually were sleeping in today. So… how do you feel?” She looked me over as she spoke.

“I feel great. Yuki did is… sleeping?”

“Yuki?” Her head cocked.

“Yea, I realized it was really weird that all I could call the wolf girl was… the wolf girl. So I thought Yuki would be good? She reminds me of the little girl in ‘Wolf Children’ and she liked it, so that’s what we’re going with. Did you name your wolf? Oh! Do we only change once a month or…like how does it work?” I know I was going too fast, but I was still super hyped from the night before and couldn’t help it.

“Hold on, hold on.” She got out of bed and it was then that I really realized she wasn’t wearing anything. Involuntarily I let out a low growl as I looked her over. “Down girl. I don’t have the energy you do right now, but later you’re going to pay for waking me up. For now…” She took my hand and stood me up. “We get breakfast.”

Leading me down the hall I could smell the bacon and sausage already. “First off… I never named my wolf. She’s always been more in the background. I know she’s there, but all she shows herself as is instinct. Before you get worried, no it isn’t odd that your wolf has been this vivid and vocal. She seems to also be the inner child you’ve repressed for so long. That reminds me… your job? Does it make you happy?”

“Well…no I guess?” I hadn’t really expected such a huge switch in topics. “Why?”

“Quit. You’ll have to at some point down the road anyways and if you’re not happy, that isn’t good. What have you always wanted to do?”

I stopped just outside the dining room. I honestly had to think about it. There was never one thing that felt like the perfect job for me. Everything I had done so far had just been because it was available when I needed something, but I did realize the last thing that I really enjoyed. “Well… I’ve always wanted to make people happy? Like create things or something like that? There’s never been like, one thing? But different creative things? Writing? Drawing? I thought I could be a director or actor or something at one point?”

“So… content creator. You don’t have to limit yourself to just one thing. You have all the time you could want to just try things. I’ll have Maribelle help you figure things out. No unhappy wolves in my pack and no unhappy babies in my family.” With that she pinched my cheek with a cheesy grin and picked me up despite our height difference. “Morning Winifred.” She chimed as the older woman came in to me being sat in a booster seat.

Winnie rolled her eyes and suddenly Liliana looked to be about five. “What have I told you about that name?”

Liliana let out a squeak. “Sorry sorry sorry, I’ll stop.” And Liliana lifted her magic.

“Good. Now if you’re done being sassy?” She eyed me and I felt like the world was growing around me. Suddenly the booster seat was much more comfortable. “Enjoy your day little one.”

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Stumbling around between flashes of color and sounds was not working. I ended up calling Delemain.

“You appear to be in distress, miss; Should I take you to the hospital?” The Car’s AI asked as I fumbled with the seat belt.

“No no… I need to go to Cobi. He’ll take care of…” the world faded into a cotton candy cloud around me. When I came back we were in the familiar alley.

“Ma’am, we have arrived at your destination, but I would be remiss if I didn’t suggest the hospital again. You seemed to be…” I opened the door and practically fell out.

“I’ll be fine. I’m telling you, Jaco is the best there is. He’s been patching me up since I was a kid.” I wobbled my way to the stairs and clung to the handrail as I went down. “Jacobi? You hear? I need ya bud…”

The older scruffy looking man looked out the door and saw me in my stupor. “Oh Lynn! What happened kid? You look like you’re in some far off world or something.” He put my arm over my shoulder and helped me across the room.

“I feel like it Jac, I feel like it…”

“Someone slip you something or what?”

“This girl… kidnapped… port…” I shook my head trying to clear my thoughts. “There was some virus waiting for me. I need you to fix me up man… you were the only one I thought of…”

“Yea… she figured that would be the case..” Jacobi looked incredibly sad as he plugged into my neck port. “I’m really sorry kiddo… but hopefully you’ll at least not have to worry about anything…”

As my world swirled again, I looked up to my go-to ripper and realized the first thing he had told me was true. In this life, you can never fully trust anyone, even if they are like family. “Co… Co… Bi? Whyyyyyyy?”

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I ran, the wind in my fur. Down on all fours. I was free. Everything was right. Rachel was happy. Liliana kept pace behind me. The world was mine.

It had started as Rachel exploring herself and her new form, but once she was accustomed to it, she let me take the lead. Everything was new. Of course I had Rachel’s knowledge of things, but it wasn’t the same as just putting my paws to the ground and going. In the back of my mind, Rachel was giving me the information about things I showed interest in. Trees, the river, so many smells!

I found a rabbit and chased it for a good bit, but we didn’t want to hurt it. I could hunt. I could hurt the rabbit, but I knew I didn’t need to. I didn’t have to hurt the bunny to eat, even if it would be so easy. Rachel didn’t want to kill it, and I knew I didn’t either. I just wanted to play. So I did. Until the sun began to peek through the trees.